I'm a missionary's girl.

this one could be a downer...



I was driving out of my neighborhood about half an hour ago and on my way out a truck passed me, with read headed boy that i though was Austin in the drivers seat. I have never in my life had tears come to me so quickly, it seemed as if it was instantaneous! i completely fell apart. Then like 5 minutes later, i looked in my rear view mirror and there were Elder's in the car behind me...and que tears. BAH! Ok! i admit it!...i may miss him like crazy! i love that boy more than anything! and i just want him home so so badly. Why? well there are plenty of reasons but as of late, the main reason is that i just want someone to be with all the time. To kiss me all the time. To hug me all the time. To come over to my house when i've been throwing up for 12 hours straight and force me to eat apple sauce until i cry cuz i can't eat anymore....i just want austin. and lately i've been trying to fill that missing part with boys....well one in particular....we'll call him Curly.

I love love loved spending time with Curly! He brought out the immature side of me despite the fact that he's 5 years older than me. We got along so well and when i was in a bad mood, he would seriously just sit and take my crap...and it was so cute! I still loved hanging out with him and...i hate to admit this but i loved kissing him. He was an amazing kisser! The part i loved the most about him is that his friends come to him for blessings...that is so fricken hot! and i love that he actually has friends...lots. and they're so fun!and now all of a sudden i haven't heard from this kid all week. We both agreed that we didn't want anything serious but i just want him to call me more and talk to me. Call me high maintenance but it's not that hard...He totally threw me for a loop and was protective of me and i LOVED it!! But i haven't heard from him in 4 days...and he'll most likely text me tonight to hang out and even though i'm staying home to do homework...according to him i'll either have plans or am going on a date. I miss him and his friends and his kisses but i know i won't marry him...he just makes the time go by and kind of makes me miserable when i'm not with him. BUUUUTT! I did learn a few things from him...



1. Don't stress about things as much.

2. This is the hardest time of my life but i shouldn't be so hard on myself because it's gonna suck whether or not I stress.

3. How to play the drums....sort of.

4. How to bowl.

5. How to spin my bowling ball haha! So FUNNY!


6. Don't worry, be happy.


Maybe it's this stupid chill attitude that is so dang cute that is our problem...don't be chill when it comes to me Curly ya big dumb! freakin fight for me....AUSTIN DID!!....ok so maybe that's another problem...i expect Curly, and every other boy to treat me like a princess like Austin did...so maybe there's lot's of problems with me dating other guys but i'm hoping that this is the classic lesson of "you don't know what you have until it's gone."Mmmm... i love us.

The distance this week has made me feel differently about Curly and this quote from mormon bachelor pad conveys exactly how i feel "I don't think about [him] as often as i used to. I don't get that sorta sick feeling like i ate too many dill pickles too fast when i don't hear from [him] and think [he] might be out with someone else" got that quote from mormon bachelor pad's blog. but that's exactly it...so despite the good times together Curly, you have made this past month go by extremely slowly, and i'm not happy about that, so peace out! All i want is my elder baby, and i know that he's the only one that can make me happy. it's weird that I'm admitting all of this on my blog but i figured that nobody will read it anyway so whatever! needless to say i love my boy and i still bawl when i look at the pics of us dropping him off at the MTC. i love him and am so proud of him and can't wait for him to come home so i can stop going on dates with all of these freaking losers that are only temporary happiness! I want my boy so i can be happy all the time! in the end...despite all of the confessions have to make to Austin when he comes home, i'm still his girl...i'm a missionary's girl.

Sad day...look at that ugly cry face!





Couldn't even look at him...look at that big crocadile tear!


love,
Ches

p.s. i'm a little bit ashamed of this but i recently found a blog called confessions of a mormon bachelor pad, i started reading it and i'm officially obsessed! i read it for like 4 hours this morning!! it's hysterical!!