Everything Will Fall Into Place

I fasted today.

I went to church for 6 hours today.

I bore my testimony at church today.

I felt the spirit today.

I learned of all the things that i have to be greatful today.

I got a testimony of Joseph Smith today.

And i truly believe that he was a prophet today.

I. love. church.

Today was just an amazing day, absolutely amazing! I have never been so greatful to have the opportunity to fast. I fasted for spirituality and for the lord to lead me where he wanted me in order to find who i want to be. The spirit was so strongly with me today, it was so strong that my heart felt like it was pounding out of my chest, to the point that i couldn't stop shaking! and it was UH-MAZING!!

Today, i learned how i will acheive all of my resolutions. The words "stay close to the savior, and everything will fall into place" kept coming to my mind in sacrament. I love the Lord and my Savior Jesus Christ. I have a firm testimony that the Lord does hear our prayers, and he does answer them. We have to understand that the lord knows us better than anyone else, and he will answer our prayers when it's best for us. My heart is full today.

I just want to share one more thing that I learned today from one of the young men's testimonies he said "The difference between a sinner and a saint is that a saint keeps trying" How amazing is the youth in my ward?! Oh and we watched this in our lesson today! Watch this! It'll make you smile!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wiiadnMvm20

I love president Uchtodorf.

In the name of Jesus Christ. Amen.

Love, Ches!

This year, Things Will Be Different!

In reflection of my past year, which hasn't been too shabby, i have come up with a couple resolutions. Blog more frequently, Make New Friends, MOVE OUT!, kick butt in school, don't get engaged!, and be me!

Blog more frequently...self explanatory. i don't write in a journal so i think that blogging would be a good substitute.

Make new friends...well yeah...this year has been insane! Since i didn't have Austin to distract me from how messed up my life actually was, i had to learn to deal with it. Starting with accepting my parent's divorce :S and at the same time dealing with Austin being gone...I don't think i've seen such lonely days IN MY LIFE! So going through depression pretty badly with basically NO FRIENDS(you bet i did the classic high school girl thing, where they get a boyfriend and nobody else matters...i don't suggest it). I mean i have a couple really close ones that i'm myself around but everyone else i'm just quiet. This year I WANT TO BE ME AGAIN! i want to get myself back and yeah there were alot of people that didn't like me but quite frankly I DON'T CARE! i was happy and that's all that matters! :)

MOVE OUT!...Not that I hate living at the Andersen's, i actually love it for the most part. But for those of you that don't know Austin and I are on a temporary hiatus for the next 9 months, So he's doing his thing and i'm doing mine...which includes dating(i'm not doing too great of a job at that yet haha). And dating is a little weird while i'm living at my boyfriends house. Not to mention the fact that i have and 11 o'clock curfew...and i'm 19 years old! i shouldn't have one of those! blech! but the college thing sounds pretty fun, i need it! i want it! so bring it on!

kick butt in school...yeah last semester wasn't my best, actually i think it was my worst EVER. But I've had a break from both school and work for a whole week so BRING IT!

don't get engaged...well a year ago i thought i'd be engaged/and or married by the end of the year...the Andersen's still think it'll happen. SICK! as of right now, the thought makes me cringe! i want to be young and live my last teenage year out! i have my whole life to be married, why settle down now? i'm having way too much fun. plus when you're married, there's a chance of pregnancy and i'm NOT ready to be fat yet! UGH!

just be me...alright as you may already know, i used to be quite the little ball of fire/excitement/happiness/loudness. and when i met austin it all went straight out the window and i turned into a perfect little quiet girl that didn't even really laugh, and i've been that way for the past two years!! not cool! so this year i'm doing me, and i'm doing it my way, which is the loud, happy, and sometimes even obnoxious way!

so hold on to your unda pants cuz this year is going to be insane!